After four years of being in and out of my life like this, it's obvious that you're important. And valuable, even if it's not in a book or on a website or in a newspaper. You challenge me. You make me reconsider, you make me think. Maybe one day I'll be able to stop apologizing for what I did to you, maybe one day things will be totally alright--I want back what we had, and maybe that's just because I always want what I can't have. I want to move you, to make you think, to make you reconsider, to give you exactly what you give me. I want tonight, over and over again like it used to be. You're the most intelligent person I've ever met, and you've changed me. More than the others who have come and gone and hurt me--you're the exception to every rule I've established for the people that I make a part of my life.

I'm changing my M.O. I am not here to hurt you. You're, honestly, truly, the best thing for me right now and this time, I am not going to push you away. I'm fighting tooth and nail to keep you right here. You're giving me another chance and I'm grateful. Let me back in.

If you don't, who's going to teach me about quantum physics?