It was eye opening, really, and the realization washed over me like a wave. To put it candidly, a switch was flipped. You're lacking the dimension that I crave, that creature inside of some people that moves them to move others, and create change. It's a rare beast--I've met five people who have it. You don't. And you're not what I want. Knowing that is the most refreshing epiphany I've had in a long while.
I'm looking for perpetual parallel synchronization, for a deeper understanding, for comfort, and for someone who can move me. You offer none of the above. I haven't found it yet, by any means, partly because what I'm looking for is sickeningly idealistic, and partly because I'm only 17 and I have plenty of time. It's trial and error.
I'm awake.
Or, maybe, this is just a more eloquent way to throw up the white flag again.